life in the office

i'm trying my best to recover from the emotional and mental torture i'm experiencing right now. i know it's not that easy, but i've been praying that God will give me strength to overcome what i'm feeling right now. i've been fasting, i mean literally not eating for eight hours, asking for God's favor. i know and i need to accept that the person i came to like doesnt like me. it's quite painful, knowing that he likes someone and that someone is not me! maybe because some things are not really meant to be. he can't even forgave me when i had this fake confrontaion w/ him last month. i just came to realize that not all people had the same mind set that i had. even though or as much as i want to be friendly and to get close w/ the people around me, that would not be possible.

all i need right now is peace of mind, to get back to my old self, to be able to be myself. that's it. i'm not really asking for anything else, let alone getting a boyfriend. who needs one anyways?