walking behind

it's quite weird, whenever people see me and tell me that i lookd happy, i look like i'm in love and they even thought i have a boyfriend! maybe it's because of the glow they see on my face when they get to see me. i don't know i look good, but from what i know, im not good-looking. because if i do, then the person that that i like should have at least noticed it. maybe the people around me think i'm happy because i always have this ready smile on my face whenever i see them, and somehow at least i never failed to acknowledge their presence. but if only those guys know how i rally feel...

if they only knew how much emotional struggle i'm going through right now. but i can't blame anyone. i mean, i was me who let this stupid feeling grow within me. i shouldn't have admitted to myself that i like this certain person, knowing that that person won't like me in return. and now, it really is my fault why i'm feeling this pain and burden i'm feeling right now. some people might think it's just "mababaw" since that person and i were never been friends in the first place and now that he's leaving, i'll be the one left behind and nothing to hold on to.

if he only knew that i'm really trying my best to be friends with him. and it was too late that it's not easy for me to do, and i just came ti realize that it's not easy for me to win his friendship. i only got a day late toask for his forgiveness. might as well do it now, or spend somehow part of my life regretting why i had done such stupid thing, which is to demand for his attention. i might not be perfect, or ideal girl but i know i still deserve his forgiveness